hi..
i feel myself really horrifically miserable.. i hate myself for something that i cant say to you but.. its really difficult for me and i dont want to say it to anybody . please dont ask me about it
i would like to ask to read my past journals and it ll be very nice for me if you can offer me that i can draw because drawing means a lot for me and it helps me to forget about my problems for a while .
I hate myself soooo muuuch...
and i hate summer i hate the sun , hot weather and people who wants that i 'll go to swim with them . i cant stand water and swimming . why cant they understand it ? !
i am truly feel so unhappy.. and everything what i want to say i cant say because i dont communicate with people in real life . i am not interested in it . so i try to say with people in the internet (i draw and i try to do it with my soul )
to be honestly i need some help . i need that i can draw , i need in good books because i dont want to think about,, about.
i am just scared helpless wolf
im truly deeply sorry but i just want to say it to anybody but all i have .. i have only people in the internet and they are so far from me. sometime i want to talk with them , to hug . but i cant..
its a pity.. it all hurts me so much .
drawing is my medicine.. something gets worse , not better. i can't live in the past but i can't forget about it .. its sooo sad..
many people begin to ask 'whats happened ? why are you so sad ? ' arrr... and if i say that i dont want to disсuss it with them they take offense or ask more and more..
so i have to smile and be optimistical person, but it is not so ! its difficult.. i tired
i dont know how i can stop to hate myself how to get over my
melancholy . im alone but its not really problem because its normal for me because i have folk , drawing and hahaha it sounds not very good or ? i dont know. i can't say all what i want because..i dont know..
please help me. i truly need it ! what can i draw ? i dont know that but if you can suggest me something please do it ! it will help me . help me to find the way to save ..